I was taking a walk, enjoying the warm spring sunshine and the opportunity to be alone with my thoughts. I began reviewing the revelations that God has recently given me about my marriage. I thought about my desire to accept it for what it is and let go of my expectations, as well as my disappointments.
It was a good day; I was feeling strong and upbeat. How easy it is for me to think this way on days like this.
I can do it, I thought. I can just love and accept my husband, be a sponge and trust my needs to God. Today. But what about on my bad days? What about when PMS strikes?
Dismay threatened to overwhelm me as I realized how quickly my resolve would fall apart during that time of the month. Who am I kidding? All my lofty aspirations mean absolutely nothing when my hormones start raging or my body is tired and miserable.
That’s when it struck me how ludicrous was my line of thinking. How many times must I go back to this same point? In my weakness, HE is strong. Of course, the best time for God to accomplish this work in my heart and in my marriage is when I am weak.
I don’t have to fear PMS and its destructive power. It won’t inhibit God at all. In fact, I am more likely to get out of God’s way, because that’s when I know that I cannot do it and must lean entirely on God’s power.
What a relief!